Saturday, December 20, 2014

I am in Love

This isn't "that" kind of post because I haven't fallen in love with a great guy (or even met him for that matter), but it's a post about how much I love my son.  I go through phases when I can't wrap my arms around him enough, I tell him how much I love him all the time (yet that doesn't seem to be enough), and I just take in all that he offers me and the world.  I know that every (okay, maybe most) Mom feels blessed to have her children and every Mom (again, most) thinks her child is the best one out there. Lately, I am that Mom, and it just consumes every ounce of me.  Sometimes I am in disbelief that I made him, that he grew inside of me, and that he is growing into an amazing little boy. Am I the only one who goes through this? 

When I ask him, "How much do I love you?"  His response is, "Too much." (I think he means "So much" because that's what I tell him, but his "s's" aren't the great right now.)  Anyway, his answer always makes me smile. Even when he wipes every single kiss off his face, I laugh and don't take offense. I can't even imagine loving him too much, but holy shit I love this kid!  I especially love when he does or says something and then follows up with, "I make you happy!"  What 2 1/2 year old says that?!  He always wants me to be happy and knows when I'm not (which is not often).  He is so in tuned to me that it's kind of freaky. 

I remember when my friends or my sister had their first kid, they told me how much they immediately loved their babies. I never understood that.  I remember them telling me a few weeks later how they've never loved anyone like they love their child.  I couldn't wrap my head around that.  But as soon as Sidekick was put in my arms, I loved him.  It was that simple.  I just plain loved him.  As he grows into this amazing little boy, I love him more each day.  I love the person he has become, and I can see that he is going to be a loving, caring, funny, outgoing, smart man (the kind I wish I could find!).  He is perfect in every way (minus the two year old moments he has).  He is better than I could have ever hoped and imagined he would be. 

So, as we approach Christmas with just the two of us celebrating together, I am reminded of how blessed I am.  Without him, who would I be now?  Where would I be now?  In just 2 1/2 short years, my world has been turned upside down in the most positive, amazing way I could ever imagine. Who knew that a little human being weighing 9 pounds 8 ounces who could do absolutely nothing on his own but pee and poop could do that to someone?

And for a little chuckle, here are a few pics "with" Santa. This one was at a members only night at a children's museum:

This one was when an awesome, beautiful Santa with a real beard visited his school (see  pic after this one).  I went in hopes of snapping a good picture since the picture at the museum was unsuccessful.  This is what I got.  Yep, he didn't want anything to do with Santa, but he sat at a table near him.  Little shit!

This is the beautiful, awesome Santa that visited school.  Sidekick wasn't a fan last year either:
Finally, I love this picture of Sidekick from a few weeks ago decorating his own Christmas tree for his bedroom with his big, furry sister supervising.  (He had more fun decorating his own tree than he did doing the big one in the living room):

1 comment:

  1. I love this post, and very much "get it" with what you are saying. There just aren't enough hugs, kisses, and words to truly express the way a mom feels about a child!